

"Then she got into a car accident," he continued. "It has probably been the most difficult year if my life," he admitted, "Thing after thing, both my wife and I resigned from the church that we helped plant, and got married at, we both had to leave because of how things were going, So we lost our jobs at the same time." In the midst of creating Becoming Who We Are Gardner experienced much tragedy, but it did not slow the band down. The whole song was built around that idea." "I just wanted to write a song where I can say really loud that I will not be afraid," he explained, "cause I needed to sing it to my own soul. The Seattle based musician said "Defender," a track off of Becoming Who We Are, is an example of how he turned a personal struggle with fear into a reminder. We're just trying to be ourselves and sing about what we need to sing about." Gardner made it clear that he and the rest of Kings Kaleidoscope are not making music just to sell records "or even move other people," he said, "I'm doing it cause I need to. Music has always been something that I would go to express really deep pain or really deep needs that I have or wants or joys," he explained, "All of my emotions since I was little, I've let out through music." "God has made me to really express myself and talk to him. Gardner candidly talked about why he is so passionate about music and God. "If I could, I would be back leading every Sunday as part of that local church and Kings Kaleidoscope and would still be a wild band doing what we do," he confessed, "but it wasn't a healthy place to be and so it's unfortunate." "It's just really unfortunate and heartbreaking," the singer said, "It makes me really sad and we pray for them and wish the best for Mark and the other pastors there." In recent months Mars Hill Church has been under fire for controversy surrounding their former pastor, Mark Driscoll, who has since resigned. Within that year I've kind of been like a baby learning about the music industry." "It's been almost a year now since I left working for Mars Hill church. Gardner and his band started off as the worship band of Mars Hill church, but have since left the church.

"We know that there's probably a lot of people that will like it and the only way they can find out about it, is if it's put in front of them and having a bigger label to do that is really helpful."

"We make what we love," Gardner says, and explains why he partnered with a major company like Tooth & Nail Records.

Kings Kaleidoscope is independent, but has teamed up with Tooth & Nail Records' and Bad Christian to push their music. Kings Kaleidoscope is a 10 member band that Gardner heads, and their edgy hip-hop, soulful sound consists of passionate vocals, drums, bass, keys, guitars, and a vast array of orchestral elements including violins, cellos, woodwinds, trombones, trumpets, and vibraphones. "Finally we have done what we've been wanting to do for years," Gardner declared when talking about the release, "We fully got to make it the way we wanted it to be, and we had the grind and the energy to just make what we love, and what we want, and really reflect ourselves in it." The band originated in the controversial Mars Hills Church where they led worship, have released several EPs, and gained recognition - but Becoming Who We Are is their first full-length record. On the brink of the release of Kings Kaleidoscope's first full-length album, Becoming Who We Are, BREATHEcast caught up with front man Chad Gardner about the incredibly painful, yet character building journey that formed the band's new record.
